Whew! What a Year That Was!
(and what a ME I have become)
Part One

Personal Perspectives 9

I recall how I used to, in the sweet energy of moments of feeling solid and grounded and powerful, declare to the Universe that I am ready to grow and am willing to face that which is meant for me next...so, "Bring It On!",  I would shout. And then I would half heartedly look for all the goodness that would flow my way because I was so "enlightened and courageous". And, yes, stuff would happen and I would deal with it and feel like I was moving forward and changing in ways small and sometimes, large.

It seems that the Universe was saving all the really big stuff for the time when I was perceived as energetically and vibrationally ready. And, as it turns out, this was the year that rocked my foundation on all levels and shook me to the core to reveal what has always been waiting within...ME.

Yes, I will provide some juicy details and reveal my struggles and learnings but, first, some background perspectives. The upcoming pivotal next "end-of-the-world" event in 2012 has been influencing all of us since the birth of it in 1987 with the first world energetic event of mass recognition, the Harmonic Convergence. I was drawn to Mt. Shasta in California, a notorious space being town that was a haven for spiritual seekers and those disgusted with the life that was given in this culture...and also the birthplace of some of the most powerful and profound spiritual teachings ever dropped in our laps, the I Am Discourses (the first popular acknowledged and discussed recognition of the presence and power of the Ascended Masters and the Great White Brotherhood and the Violet Flame and the Elohim and Archangels).

I remember the weekend vividly as there were several thousand there committing themselves to the call of the emerging energies and the promise of the real Age of Aquarius and the fall of the Patriarch. We traversed the mountain and partook in the planting of intentions and surrender of our past to lay claim to a beautiful world envisioned in the love immersed chaos of the Sixties. All the while witnessing shamanic drummers tranced out and playing for 27 hours straight...visiting the house where the tv had been impressed with a remarkable non erasable electronic image of an angel on the screen...where at night, by the lake, watching the trails of light come and go from the peak of the mountain (those in the know saying UFO's for sure entering the Inner Kingdom of the Earth)... Let's just say that seeds were planted on that mountain that weekend...

And ever since, we, as humans have been on an energetic fast track, a Divine cleanse of that which is no longer relevant to us on any level, a shaking loose of the illusions and beliefs that took us down a greedy, abusive, forgetful road for way too long. Those who are open to the light and talk freely about transition and the God within and Oneness of humanity and the shifting of the institutions most likely have experienced some significant transformations and are taking, most likely, the road less traveled these days. And those, ignorant to the big picture or too entangled in the web of fear and deceit and immersed in ignoring the heart and the love that we are, have grown too as they have been subjected to the same energy that the rest of us have. And they, in response, cling to the forms and shout, "Pay no attention to the man behind the curtain!"

So, I, and we all, stand at the precipice of significant change in this year of our Lord, 2010, in the midst of the shadows and the Light, stirred beyond memory to be that which we truly are... and that alone. And as every individual incarnation of human on this planet goes through the unique and personal experience of super-cleanse on their own, the new life emerges for those who choose to stay here and ride this one out. I have talked to many and what I discern is that Universal Benevolence has showered us with the frequency of very potent energy designed to root out the deepest woundings of each of us and give us the keys to the kingdom that will open the door to truly returning home...to the pure beautiful spirit that we are, expressing as human form in the delightful dimensional garden called Earth. And many are taking the challenge and riding the birth pains of the energetic shift to release the pain and depression and anger and fear and confusion and hatred to finally be able to look in the mirror without turning away...to see the precious pure child that we have always been.

And many are circling the wagons and building walls of money and possessions to keep the riff-raff out and clinging to the crumbling forms and institutions that have always reflected the woundings inside...diversions and electronic distraction to keep the pain from being felt...and released. And for awhile it even has felt like they can keep the angels out. But love and Light are potent and undeniable forces that will clarify and transform even the darkest illusion and the deepest pain and the most heinous abuse...guaranteed.

I was born to be here in this time...just like you and anyone who is reading this or thinking along these lines. And we are here because we have the skills and the talent and the frequency and the willingness and the courage and the reservoir of Light and the knowing and the history of throwing off shackles of illusion...we are all needed to bring the balance to assure the reclamation of the truth and to bring the promised land of conscious living and open hearted connection and co-creation into fruition.

Without even knowing the purpose I said yes and have shown up the best I can to the moments laid at my feet. And all the woundings and mistakes and hurts I have felt and caused in others have brought me to the this point...ready to assume the position and dance unabashedly in the Light and shout to the heavens, "Bring it on!"

And so, in 2009, the heavens did indeed do just that...and I have lived to write about it as I chose to stay, unlike many who have actually left...in an emerging unfamiliar energy of peace and happiness and abundance...touching the hem of the garment of the deep promise of life to fully experience itself...my inner smile just won't seem to go away...

In part two, I will share what happened to me and what I have learned...thank you, God, for this blessed journey.